well, 4 months has come and gone.... most people are excited to get back to school, not me though, for reasons some may know, some may not. but I'm content to at least enjoy the last few days... still, it's hard not to feel down.

I recently wrote a song... and since I don't own a musical instrument, let alone know how to play one, I guess it's considered a poem. so here it is.

"Comfortable"

I ask myself who am I
Somehow I don’t know
Of who I am, what I like
Can’t seem to take control

But than I thought, it hit me
Cause maybe I do know
That I’m just terrified
Scared of the unknown

Scared to even let me know

I tell myself who I am
I guess it makes me feel safe
And time pass, I accept my fate
I make it who I am

You think you know me
You know what you see
There’s a fog around me
It blurs the image seen
It’s no shield, it’s no mask
Just a fog, only bits of me can pass

You’re around people, who feel comfortable
They know who they are
You want to follow, take example
But than it hit you like a car
It’s not that simple, allowing people
To read about your life
Like an open book in the library
It scares the shit out of my mind

I don’t want to be like this
Suffocating, I’m losing air
Now I know what it’s like to really feel scared
I live in a world where my life’s pre-destined
Carved in stone, there’s just no chance
The life I want is not in there

I fear off what people would think
‘Bout the fact that I’m not like them
Not as much as something else
Rejection, being alone
But most of all, my biggest fear
Even something I am
Is not enough, that I suck
At things that I want to be

You think you know me
You know what you see
There’s a fog around me
It blurs the image seen
It’s no shield, it’s no mask
Just a fog, only bits of me can pass

But most of all, in the end
What I think I want
A shoulder, an ear, to cry, to hear
Someone to be near
Someone I can pour my heart out
More than just a friend
A secret book, a close kin
Something better yet
To love and be loved
For who I am, no matter what it is
To live happily ever after
No matter how cliché it is

You think you know me
You know what you see
There’s a fog around me
It blurs the image seen
It’s no shield, it’s no mask
Just a fog, only bits of me can pass

Just waiting for someone
To see through the fog
And get right to me.

currently it's titled "Comfortable" but since I have changed the title twice already, it won't be "Comfortable" for a very long. hope you guys (the very small hand full of you who happens to read my blog) like it =)

hello, well I'm blogging again coz I'm just sitting in front of my screen bored out of my mind.

so last Thursday I got to catch TRANSFORMERS IN 2K DIGITAL!! boy they weren't kidding when they say it was better visual and sound quality, I was blown out of my mind, and the visual effects, when the autobots transformed was mind blowing, totally awesome. I can't wait for the sequel, and hope the story line would be better. but all in all, I think one of the best action movie this year.

then on 7/7/07, Live Earth! damn did you get to catch it?? yes I'm passionate about it, ANSWER THE CALL!! lolz, I tell you it's ridicules the little changes we can do to help the environment and stop global warming.

oh and I was channel surfing and I switched to kids central and it happened to be airing Blue's Clues! haha classics. anyway I was just wondering what ever happen to "Steve" so I went online, and I found out that he's now actually in a rock band, and I was laughing at the irony of someone on a children's show would be in a rock band, oh and I saw this pic on his myspace page

which I think is so cute, his old shirt from BC, a little stuff toy off him and sitting on the "thinking chair" and can you believe thats the same "Steve" which sang with a blue dog... haha I know it' a little random.

well that's all, till the next post

Well I havent been blogging coz I'm to lazy, completely and utterly lazy, come to think of it, why do i have to blog so much, not many of you read my blog anyway.

anyhow lets see, my previous weekend was interesting, got to get out of the country, to kuantan, a spot in malaysia. It was ok lah, didn't do much shopping too. I got to catch a sunrise though, that was interesting, here's a pic.

then there's the following, it may just look like a plane'ol ocean, but it was once where Pearl Harbour ones stood, or float, which ever is more appropriate. here it is.

well thats the most intreasting parts of that weekend, cosidering I got sick on th trip, fuck fuck fuck.

anyway the folloing week was boring again, than fast forword to this past monday, went to catch Zodiac at Vivo, I actully really liked it, though it was like 3 hours long, my body was numb by the end. but I think it was a good movie, Mark and Jake and Robert were great in the show.

well thats all, till the next post.